For the record, and I don't even know whose record that would be, I'm Jewish, but about as unreligious as you can get. When Jennifer and I got pre-marriage counseling, I was honest with the rabbi and told him that I wasn't familiar with religious practice. Naturally, he started talking about how I could lead our (future, not yet!) children in personal prayer. Man, the only thing I'm going to teach my children to worship is a golden statue of myself. Adam

Ugh, that sounds a little too much like broccoli. I was just looking for a catchy subject. Okay, so I failed. Anyway, if you look at my last two entries, you'll see I'm analogizing between natural ecosystems, cities, and personalities. I think of my personality as being an ecosystem, much of which I still don't understand. I know that one computer science description of the brain is that it's a very slow computer, that multitasks to an enormous degree. For me, ecosystems, cities, ...

One of the reason's I've been thinking about maturity is that my life has been going through major changes. Only three weeks ago I got married, and late last year, I moved to New York City. I feel settled, and more or less at peace with myself. A little less than ten years ago I began an extended period of stress, depression, and change. It started with me having doubt about graduate school, but added a personal dimension (relationship stuff) soon afterward. That's probably not coinci...

I find my thinking keeps returning to the theme of maturity. My guess is that I'll talk about it more, in this blog. There's a scene in Jurassic Park where the scientists look down the hill at a large water hold, with various dinosaurs clustered around it. I'm doing this from memory, but I think there are apatosauri at the waters edge, pteradactyls flocking above, and smaller dinos moving between the larger ones. The scene has always struck me. In the movie, it stands out as one of th...

Here I am, drinking instant coffee and browsing the NY Times and Craig's list job listings. I'm listening to music from "The Lord of the Rings": The Breaking of the Fellowship. Well, here's a surprise, the music is depressing. I guess there aren't many songs with "break" in the title that are happy. Anyway, the music is getting me all moody and sad, which isn't action appropriate because I'm just sitting at my computer looking for jobs. I mean, I'm not looking at photos, or listening to m...

Here I am, drinking instant coffee and browsing the NY Times and Craig's list job listings. I'm listening to music from "The Lord of the Rings": The Breaking of the Fellowship. Well, here's a surprise, the music is depressing. I guess there aren't many songs with "break" in the title that are happy. Anyway, the music is getting me all moody and sad, which isn't action appropriate because I'm just sitting at my computer looking for jobs. I mean, I'm not looking at photos, or listening to m...

For me, one of the hardest things about writing a blog entry is that I usually don't know say what I'm thinking about. I have a certain thought/feeling in my head, but I don't know how to set it down. I guess that distinguishes writers from the rest of us. For example, I listen to the rock musical "Jesus Christ: Superstar" periodically. I've listened a lot to it recently, because Jennifer and I were cleaning up the apartment for my grandpa's visit, and we'd already burned out on much of ou...

I live in the East Village, although that sounds better than the reality. People who know New York think divey bars and great unknown restaurants. Instead, think a big cheesy nightclub and a fast food place called "Roll 'N Roaster" on the corner. R&R just opened. For months, they've been working on remodeling that building, and Jennifer was all excited about whatever was coming. I think she figured it would be a great Japanese restaurant. To be honest, I never thought about what it would b...

I live in the East Village, although that sounds better than the reality. People who know New York think divey bars and great unknown restaurants. Instead, think a big cheesy nightclub and a fast food place called "Roll 'N Roaster" on the corner. R&R just opened. For months, they've been working on remodeling that building, and Jennifer was all excited about whatever was coming. I think she figured it would be a great Japanese restaurant. To be honest, I never thought about what it would b...

Well, it turns out my old blog site has gone dramatically unfree. My life has changed a lot since the old blog, but you'd never know, because you can't even look at that one. Well, the big changes first: I'm married, I'm in NYC, and I'm looking for work. I'm not sure what I'll focus on here. Jennifer ("the wife" when I'm using her existence for storytelling value) suggests that I write about my search for work. You know, kill two birds with one stone and all. I should be looking at j...